I have found now that the way I am dealing with stress is to take it out on my body by running and
exercise. I seem to be able to clear my mind while participating in these activities and focus my energy in a more
positive way.
This week was our
annual performance reviews and bonuses as well as the week after I signed up for my first race of 2008. I also had a two root canals schedule for first thing in the morning Monday so I had to take the morning off work. This brings me to the
beginning of my week.
So I hit the dentist office Monday morning, put on my
iPod and the needles, numbness, and drilling begins. 1-1/2 hour later I can't feel half my face and I have two more dead teeth in my mouth fitted with very nice color matching crowns. As it is only 9:30am and I have taken the whole morning off work I figured why not head to the gym. So I put in almost 6 miles on the treadmill and then decide that as it is supposed to be my
cross training day I will join the spinning class. Note to self added
blood flow caused by increasing your heart rate causes numbness to go away very fast and leads to pain. By the time I was done I had a full two hours in at the gym and had to pop 4 Advil to take the edge off the pain (Note that I never take medications as a norm. I even had to find someone in the office to dispense these
meds).
Onto Tuesday and review day. We had our "state of the union address" in the morning as a company and then everyone broke down into their departments for individual review. I found out mine would not be until the afternoon so I was once again off to the gym. I put in three miles on the treadmill and then headed for a
bootcamp class followed by some lifting. So another two hour day at the gym and back to work for the surprising good news. The review went much better then I expected.
Wednesday was to be a more relaxed day until I was informed that I would be leaving next Monday for Taiwan. The stress level hit the roof at this point. I already have a business trip planned in two weeks and now I get to spend next week in Taiwan. How the hell am I supposed to train and when will I see the family. To heck with this I'm heading to the gym. So 8 miles later on the treadmill at faster then normal pace (at one point the guy behind me moved because he thought I might come off the back). Then to the normal pull ups, push ups and abs. Third day this week that I completed two hours worth of working out. I headed home but was so slammed with work that I honestly think I spent about 1 hour with my family the entire evening. After some calls to CA and to Taiwan I finally crawl into bed at 2:00am.
Today the alarm goes off and I don't move. I finally get ready for another day and get the kids dressed. My wife arrived home at around 7:50 and I was off to drop my son by daycare and head to work. By 11:00 I was feeling really slow so I grab a triple
espresso and add a packet of hot chocolate mix. I'm pretty
sensitive to
caffeine and this gets me moving quick. By 12:00 I'm at the gym and take a
gu with
caffeine of course to keep my energy level up. I hop on the treadmill, slam the
iPod onto full volume and hit the angry music that gets my heart going. I have a huge burst of energy from the
caffeine and get the treadmill up to about a 7:30 pace. Then it happened.
At about 2.5 miles I started feeling the cold chills go through my body and then a little light headed. It almost seemed like dehydration but that wasn't it. Then I looked down at the display and the numbers looked a little fuzzy with black dots. My first thought was that I had
sweated onto the
display and I tried to wipe it away with the towel. And then it all came together and I shut it down. Lets see, 2+ hours of
strenuous exercise a day followed by stress and a night of 5 hours of sleep and then a
caffeinated run at high speed without enough food to sustain it. I had hit the limit. I know that I can be pretty hard on myself some times but what the hell was I thinking. So I've headed back to the office for a good lunch and some relaxing time. Close my office door, set the phone to do not disturb, close the blinds and turn on some relaxing music. I'll get home tonight and institute a
mandatory bed time and then
tomorrow I'll evaluate things and enjoy my Yoga class.
I guess we all have our limits.